Subtle Mind

I have never had much of a problem with being able to clear my mind and go into a relaxed state. I have been practicing this for years and I have been able to reach some really great places in my own mind but this week was different. My husband left to go to a small mountain town in Haiti last week and I have really been missing him. Every time I get the kids down to bed and I have silence, my mind wonders what he is doing and how he is feeling. There isn't any cell reception there, so I haven't heard form him since he left the US. The loving kindness exercise was easier than the subtle mind practice because I was focusing all my love and attention on him. It's been really hard to get out of the mind set. I can't clear my mind or think about myself- it ends up turning into a talk with God about Jeff. This is good for me though. When I can focus on good things for him, I feel less stresses and that goes along with what we have been talking about. When I am mentally OK, I am more relaxed and in a better place physically. When I am stressed, my muscles in my neck and back are tight and I can't sleep and I get headaches. Relaxing eliminates all of that. It all works together.