AHHGGG!!!!
I think- no scratch that- I KNOW I have a Charlie Brown complex. I think everyone hates me and no one wants to be around me. It's frustrating! I don't want to feel that way but it just happens. So what do I do with this information? How do I change it? I think I have too many things that I want to do with myself and I don't actually know what those things are to act on them. This misguided mismatched jumble inside makes for an emotionally compromised outside. I would really like to blame it on friends and my church- the two things that have caused me the most stress and pain in the past few months....but as much as I want to- I know it's a personal issue. That goes back to - now what? Yesterday our Pastor was talking about living a "praying life" and then I thought back to what another person told me about "writing things out" and I realized that the two things are sort of the same for me. I have a hard time finding spoken word, but I can say what I